mystery of life.
If you only knew what I’m truly feeling…
Im anxious, I want to see you so badly. Like I can’t wait any longer, it’s like holding in pee ready to explode. “TMI” you might think, but what is it to anyone? Do you know how it hurts to want to be with someone you may never have. If it causes me my bladder, so be it. I want to hug you and hope it never ends. But what is it to the world, and what if you don’t feel the same. When I refer to world, I hope you know it’s you, you have become my world.
Im anxious, what if i can’t contain what I feel? People say i deserve better, i want to believe it, but I can’t resist you. So far, but why are these feelings so strong. I told myself don’t expect anything, don’t assume but we go in circles and trust me when i say Im terrified. Knowing my heart can be shattered quick by you and one in the same you mend it. maybe i can’t tell the difference between pains anymore.
Im anxious, and Im angry. Over the years i’ve come to point what if you never really cared? But i always believe in you. Im angry because you have so much control of my feelings. Im angry because Im not over you. Im angry because i want to be with you, but it’s only temporary. Im angry because i didn’t choose to love you, but you came and i fell.
Im anxiously waiting. And…IVE YET TO SEE HOW THIS STORY GOES THIS TIME
*DON’T I DESERVE A HAPPY ENDING?
*I’VE GONE HURT SO MANY TIMES BY ONE PERSON/I WILL TAKE ANY CHANCE ANY DAY TO BE THE PRINCESS AND HAVE HER HAPPY ENDING
*call me pathetic, but i believe there’s a reason for everything. there’s a reason why i hold this much of it.